i dont know what to said today...

today i feel is the normal day for me...
i dont know what to said today...
i dont know what to write today...
i dont know today is the day is meaningless for me or not...
i dont know what can i do in my future...
i dont know why i am alone...
i dont know how other people will think about me...
i dont know...
i really dont know...

going to friend's house to do Biology project...

today morning i wake up at 10.30am bring calling by my dad...
he look like so angry because my car got some problem(i dont know how to mention that problem) after my uncle borrow my car for a few days...
aiyo...
after that my dad said dont want to go out already...all stay at home!!!
but i still got badminton training at 12pm...
when it almost 12pm,i start to argue with my dad...
i remind him that my badminton training is at 12pm and i already paid the fees already...
hmm...
finally,after argue with him,he fetch me go to the badminton practise...
after that,i am going to my friend's house to do the biology project which need to pass up to Pn Lai after the school holiday...
when i come to my friend house,thats already 3something...
then we are discussing and doing our group project...
wow...Rui Juin had almost done everything...
i am responsible to research the maklumat about the plant species...
because when we make the plant sample,we need to name the plant...
thats why i had used many time in researching the maklumat...
anyway...
i think we can finish our project on time...
hope Pn Lai can give us more marks than other group gua...
haha...^^

after read Jun Yen blog,got a different kind of feelings...

today is Saturday...
i still need to work today in my dad office since Ms Ho will go to Taiwan travelling today...
but today work still can handle la...
update call sheet,call customer for meter reading and receive customer complaint...
my dad had helped me a lot...
at night my dad had invited my uncle to eat dinner together...
the rice claypot...
hmm...
the rice claypot quite nice to eat...
my cousin love it too much...
he eat more than all of us (include my uncle and aunt)...
so pro la him for today because last time he wont eat so much wan...
after the dinner,then i come home to continue my internet life...
i online and chat with my few friends especially my old classmates...
i miss them a lot because we already long time didnt see each other already...
May Hoong just come back from Sarawak 2 weeks ago...
Kit Wing today just first day holiday...
Hui Wen,Shu Jin and Shu Yin got school holiday...
it seems it is the time for me to ask them go out to yum cha...
but i dont know whether i can arrange my time or not because i still got work in these few days...
i will work until next week,until Ms Ho come back from Taiwan...
anyway...
i think i can organise an outing activity with them...
and i also chatting with my others friend that i havent see them very long time too...
Chea Wen know my ambition is to become a dentist...
she laugh at me and encourage me to work hard to succeed my ambition...
and start to call me 'Dr Khoo' already...
this make me feel so paiseh...haha...
btw,thanks for her support...
i will work hard de...
and,this is important thing today...
i just read Jun Yen blog,i found that his blog is quite interesting...
he write something that make me got the feelings that i also dont know what's feelings is that...
i didnt hate him and dont think what he wrote is wrong...
but i think if one person can put down the thing,this will make himself or herself more comfort...
love is both sides de...you cant control it but you can feel it...
if there are two pathways,one is wide and longer,another one is narrow...
if you still want to walk in the narrow pathway,you only will make yourself feel uncomfortable...
i remember my kai mui,Swee Imn told me before...
she said :'you should make a decision that able to make yourself feel more comfortable...maybe this decision will be better for you...'
i really agree what she said...
i dont want because of one thing,i am gotta to lost another many things,especially my study...
only study will guarantee my future life...
hope Jun Yen will understand this meaning one day...
put down one person although is not easy,but love one person should let her feel happy and comfortable everyday...
dont let her feel pressure,frustrated and uncomfortable in her life...
if she really like her life now,shouldnt disturb her anymore...
i know that finally,hence i try to put down...^^

sick,tired and suffering

today is the last day for Ms Ho(my dad company clerk)to work before going to travel in Taiwan...
today she only keep on reminding one thing...
she said:'chun leong ah,you remember what i thought you de things or not de? if mr khoo(my uncle) ask me you know all the things how to do or not,then how can i answer...'
hmm...
i think she said that for quite a few times already...
look like my mom are nagging at there...
but i think if she really not there,i sure very cham jor...
although i dont think i can remember all,i still dont want her to worry...
i said:'aiya,ms Ho...dont worry so much la...i remember all the things de...can handle de la...if cannot handle,then i need to call to Taiwan to ask you jor...haha...'
aiyo...
actually work as a clerk really so difficult...
there are so much things to do...
you dont worry you dont have work to do...
the work looks like cannot do finish wan even your whole life...
type quatation,receive customer complaint,call the customer for meter reading,type agreement and insert the data in the computer.......
i also cant mention already because it really too much for me...
anyway...
i really gain a lot of experience through this job...
i found that studying is better than working a lot...
working is hard and full of pressure...
studying only you give yourself pressure to take a good result only...
ok...lets talk about other things...
today is the first time i online in this week...
normally in holiday i will online more de...
but because busy working then when i come home,i decided to take a sleep early because tomorrow still need to working...
if not,my parents also will nag me to go to sleep la...
haiz...
and today i try to chat with my few friends in msn...
stephanie,xiao jing,shee mun,boon jhoe...
but boon jhoe is away...
his brother was using the computer...
then i chat with stephanie...
but i found that i cant chat more with her...
then while chat until half,i also dont know how to continue already...
haha...
finally i chat with shee mun and xiao jing...
i chat with them about the interesting topics...
especially shee mun...
she look like let me gek until half dead jor...
er...
anyway...
wish Ms Ho can enjoy her Taiwan journey with her husband...
and i really hope that she can faster come back...
because i really cant finish the work by myself only...
haiz...-.-

sick,tired and suffering

saturday still working...

today at this morning 7.30am i just woke up...
then my dad fetch me to work...
but after working,i am too tired...
my parents still nagging me why i dont want to work for the whole month...
i try to explain to them but they dont trust...
so,i am so tempered and frustrated...
i was argueing with them...
anyway...
after that i am ok...
then we go to eat dinner with my uncle...
i dont like that dinner...
er...
anyway...
i hope my job will make it successfully bah...^^

start to work today...really feel tired...

today really feel so tired after working...
yesterday i slept at 12.30am,but today wake up at 8am...
haiz...
not enough sleep because got Chemistry tuition...
and,my Chemistry will take time 2 hours leh...
thats why when teacher was teaching,i was trying my best to focus...
luckily i still knew what she taught about...
today she helped me to cover whole chapter 12(phase equilibrium)...
but i think i need to take some time to revise that chapter...
then i go to my dad office to help him...
one of his worker didnt work already...
thats why i decided to go and help him to become a temporary clerk...
although actually i dont want to work de,he wanted me to work for a while until a new clerk coming...
haiz...
me sure dont have time to study...
me sure cant enjoy my last holiday before suffering in the next year...
thats why i am worry...
STPM in the next year...
if this year i cant cover all the lower six symllabus...
maybe next year i cant catch up in the upper six...
hope i can get a good result in next year STPM gua...