sick,tired and suffering

saturday still working...

today at this morning 7.30am i just woke up...
then my dad fetch me to work...
but after working,i am too tired...
my parents still nagging me why i dont want to work for the whole month...
i try to explain to them but they dont trust...
so,i am so tempered and frustrated...
i was argueing with them...
anyway...
after that i am ok...
then we go to eat dinner with my uncle...
i dont like that dinner...
er...
anyway...
i hope my job will make it successfully bah...^^

start to work today...really feel tired...

today really feel so tired after working...
yesterday i slept at 12.30am,but today wake up at 8am...
haiz...
not enough sleep because got Chemistry tuition...
and,my Chemistry will take time 2 hours leh...
thats why when teacher was teaching,i was trying my best to focus...
luckily i still knew what she taught about...
today she helped me to cover whole chapter 12(phase equilibrium)...
but i think i need to take some time to revise that chapter...
then i go to my dad office to help him...
one of his worker didnt work already...
thats why i decided to go and help him to become a temporary clerk...
although actually i dont want to work de,he wanted me to work for a while until a new clerk coming...
haiz...
me sure dont have time to study...
me sure cant enjoy my last holiday before suffering in the next year...
thats why i am worry...
STPM in the next year...
if this year i cant cover all the lower six symllabus...
maybe next year i cant catch up in the upper six...
hope i can get a good result in next year STPM gua...

peaceful school day...

today just a few students were coming to school...
most of the form 4 and form 6 students ponteng school...
then Boon Jhoe ask us not need to tugas...
shuang!!!
but i still got class...
need to attend my class to listen teacher taught...
haiz...
why teacher dont let us rest even this week is the last week for us schooling in this year?
hate the class...
then later when recess time i join terrence,daniel,chun yew and other friends play basketball at the basketball court...
although i am wearing uniform to play,i can play well too in the full court...
i was scoring two balls leh...
and,the thing that make me so angry is my biology experiment 'chromatography'...
i hate that experiment,because i need to dot the chlorophyll 50 times leh...
OMG!!! i need to dry the dot first with hairdryer then only can drop the new one...
because the experiment need a small dot only...
but lastly,i fail my experiment already...
i need to redo tomorrow...
luckily tomorrow dont have maths period because teacher is going to duty in SPM...

nothing special today...

actually today nothing special...
only my childish brother want me to help him open a account in facebook and msn...
actually,i am not willing to help him because i scared next time he will rebut the computer with me...
but later he go and tell my mom that me dont want to help him...
then my mom scold me and force me to help me make the account for him...
and...
i am really angry with one person action...
his childish action make me so bu shuang...
actually he is not bad in attitude...
but suddenly he start to insult me first...
later he apologise to me...
i really dont trust that he will really apologise to me sincerely...
i think he got aims by doing that...
insulting me and let me act as a fool...
thats why i am so angry...
hence,next time talk with this guy is very meaningless for me...
then i better dont talk...
if not,he will thought i am scolding his parents...
perasan betul...

very busy and tired today...

today is form 3,form 5 and upper 6 majlis perpisahan...
and,today is the last day for them to study in this school this year...
especially many of my form 5&6 friends need to leave this school after the SPM and STPM...
so they are keep on taking photo today with their friends...
me also taking photo with han seng and kumana...
and,today i need to tugas and jaga class because form 5 students need to arrange their tables and chairs for SPM...
i jaga the bilik kosong and the things that i only need to do is to arrange those extra tables and chairs nicely in this room...
luckily,boon jhoe,li shen and chun yew helped me to arrange those tables and chairs...
really thanks for their help a lot...
if not,i could finish my job by myself only...
when form 3 majlis perpisahan,i heard that chris said gareth will continue his study in singapore...
this had made me feel shocked and surprised...
but,definitely this is a great chance for him in his study...
and he is clever and able study well at there...
although i and him not close,i know him this year and found that he is quite friendly also...
anyway...
wish him good luck in singapore...

今天是中秋节。。。

今天是中秋节。。。
对于我来说，每年的中秋杰还是一样。。。
根本都没庆祝，连去中秋晚会都没有。。。
除了小时候还有去公公家庆祝。。。
但是自从公公去世后，这个节日对我来说已毫无意义了。。。
今天，我早上刚去了邻居的理发店减短了头发。。。
但看起来还是怪怪的。。。
可能我看不习惯我短发的样子。。。
考试要到了！
我到现在都还没准备好。。。
书还有很多还没读。。。
难道我就这样放弃我中六的第一次的考试吗？
我觉得我是不会这样就放弃了。。。
就算是读到考试前的一分钟，我还是要读完书。。。
这是我对自己的要求。。。
可能这也是我在中六里最后一次考试。。。
我目前还不确定我要继续中六，还是转读学院。。。
其实，我每次跟我父母说看考试成绩先才做决定是自己骗自己的。。。
因为连我自己都不知道考试过后，我可以这么爽快做一个我想要的决定。。。
我怕我会后悔。。。
我怕我会选错路来走。。。
我怕我以后的人生是失败的。。。
就因为这样，我甚至不敢面对这个问题。。。
做其他东西来麻醉自已。。。
我在自欺欺人吗？
唉。。。。。。