today no mood...because of her?

today i really dont have mood...
play badminton also feel tired...
win and lose in the badminton match didnt affect my mood today...
maybe because of her...
or maybe because of my favourite team,arsenal lose yesterday...
i saw her and her family come to yoke nam and play badminton at 3something...
i didnt go and talk with her today...
maybe i think i dont want to disturb her...
she has her own freedom...
i dont want to make her feel that i am annoying...
for me,can become her friend already very good...
what can i hope for?
but the only thing i am sure...
"I WONT GIVE UP!!!"
i will wait although it is a long period...
i promise myself to make my study and sport better first...
i dont want being pandang rendah by other people...
i hate the feelings that being pandang rendah by the others...
haiz...

tuesday tutorial class

only one word can mention about today tutorial class...
'BORING'...
when i attend for the BI tutorial class,i found that Pn Chan Koon Fong is there...
OMG...i will meet my form 3 BI teacher again...
although she was speaking and teaching,i only did my biology report...
i didnt listen and learn anythings from her lesson...
haha...
later is Pn Buwasnery(dont know how to spell her name) tutorial class...
only one question that we are doing in that lesson...
but she said we need to pass up tomorrow...
until now i also hadnt finish that question yet...
hehe...

stressful...

today is the first time people call me so annoying...
i am so surprised she will say that...
but i admit i am that type of person...
i dont know what should i said...
because i cant do anything for that...
the only thing i can do is
'start changing myself from now onwards'...
i dont want to make other people to mistaken...
i like to chat because i think this can reduce my pressure...
i want to tell and share many things with my friends...
study form 6 really is pressure for me...
i cannot enjoy like form 5 life that time...
my classmate all leave,studying college...
no sport,no study together,no activities...
these only can become a part of the memory in my brain forever...
haiz...